trying

So last week I Finally received a phone call from the local police department for a interview about the dispatcher position. I went on the interview and yesterday I handed in my reference sheet which was the last part on my part to do. I have hopes for it but at this point who can really say what will happen. If I manage to the job it will mean I will be working 60 hours a week. It's going to be ruff for the first few months and really it will be a big change but hopefully with the extra money I can do something about my debit problem. Once it's done I things can progress and I will figure out the next step with....everything

starting the week

So today is Thursday which in terms of work is really my MONDAY. I will be working from Today till next Tuesday morning. However come Tuesday morning I will be heading straight from work to the city! I made plans to go see Fear Factory with my cousin! Should be a good time!!

Currently it is 8:54 a.m. and I am waiting for the bus to show up so I can go to Warwick and get some laundry done for this month! I received several things in the mail including my Comics for this month, the new fear factory cd and a Ghostbuster Lego set which me and the girlfriend managed to put together. It was pretty fun and over all I think it was worth the money! Weather today seems to be going my way... so hopefully the rest of the day pans out to be pretty on track. Least ... I HOPE!

back into the city

So this week I took a trip back into the city to see my cousin during my couple of days off. I left work Wednesday morning and quickly jumped on the bus to it. The bus in the morning is far more comfortable to take then the bus in the evening cause instead of taking 2 hours and half it takes about an hour "maybe a bit over" if you catch the express.

I am very prone to motion sickness so the shorter the time the better. I made plans to come back home yesterday but we sorted things out here and I managed to stay an extra night. I showed my cousin the films "The house of 1000 corpses, and the Devils Rejects". He enjoyed em and I even managed to show him five nights at Freddies which while I am not much of a fan of the series it still holds something interesting in terms of horror and jump scares.

We meet up at about 430pm.. I from the moment I arrived spent a better part of my time walking the city. I hit up both midtown comic shops, Toys R us, and even found a nice bar that had a good bbq sammich! Yesterday my cousin and I waited till about 1130 a.m. to head out and pick up his mother from the airport. From that point we ate some Mexican Food and pretty much just came back here to spend time together.

We drank some wine Wednesday night which was fun enough. Had some deep conversations and are now also making plans to spend a week off probably just to have the week off to joke around and do what we do. Today I will be returning home with my mother who is supposed to be coming this morning to drop off my grandmother here.

The plan is to catch either the 3 pm express back home or one sooner... My mother tends to not like spending to much in the city.. Either way it will be a fun day!

Time off

So the next couple of days I have off.. I should go do laundry..and I probably am.. but currently I am pretty pissed off for reasons I won't get into. I am going to write some more ...later today...PROBABLY ALOT MORE..but for now..just wanted to write something..

bullshit

I can't stand bullshit stories. I hear em all the time AND I often think ..."Do you really believe in half the shit you say?". <- Not really directed at anyone but I know people who are so in tune with bullshit stories that I have to question if that person or persons believe in it? I mean what I write here is really free speech on everything I write about. I don't re read any of this and it has a ton of problems with it's writing but none of it do I consider bullshit. Bullshit to me is defined by how much truth is inside what is being said. You can't just call yourself a dove if you're actually a fucking cat. I don't know..this is really just random... and ...blah

difficult

It's difficult to work a night job and function during the day. Over time I have gotten better at doing it but some times the mind and the body just get so tired that really it's just hard to pull myself out of bed let alone walking to work and doing the job. Today was one of those days that I came home "planned to do stuff" but couldn't pull myself to do anything. I was just tired and had a headache. In a bit I will take a shower and get ready for work.

Who knows how much I will get done tonight. Hopefully something will push me past this weakened state of mind. Maybe some Coffee?.. Either way I have shit to do tomorrow that MUST BE done. Sunday will be a good rest day and Monday will follow suit to me doing Laundry and getting ready to pick up my girlfriend on Tuesday.

Weekend hasn't even started yet... but I feel like it's going to be a longgggggggggggg weekend.. My mind just isn't in it at all. One hell of away to start MAY! Happy Beltane everyone.

learning programming

I managed to find a series of videos on Youtube on Lectures for Introduction to Computer Science and Programming. I am doing this so I can learn how to help my cousin at his job. Honestly it's more complicated than I thought it would be. However I like the feeling of learning again. It's going to be something I need to repeat a few times I think... cause.. I am learning.. but christ... it's ruff