New Years eve

Today I slept..spent a majority of the day streaming Watch dogs on wiiu "which was funny as hell". Tonight I will be working so hopefully not to many people get trashed and act like assholes. My girlfriend did her phone interview for my job so it should BE GOOD!! I hope! Short of that really hoping tonight goes well.. should be a interesting New Years night at work!! OFF I GO!

Mom's Birthday!

Today was my mothers birthday. After work I came home .. went to sleep till about 130pm. Woke up and went out to CVS to buy a card and took out some money to buy the most AMAZING Chocolate mousse cake. I arrived at around 2pm but came to find no one was home. She went out shopping with my grandmother so for the next hour or so I spent my time watching the X-Files.. which was all good and fine.. They arrived home and I surprised em with the cake and card. It was a nice Birthday I think .. I even got to have 5..or 6..shots of Marshmallow Vodka..Which sent me home a bit tipsy around .. 6pm.

At 6 pm I arrived home and streamed on my livestream channel FIST OF JESUS! and some strange game called Zeno Clash.. Which was interesting.. but one of the strangest games I have played in awhile. Fist of Jesus is by far the most entertaining game I have played in awhile. It was over all a great time.. and I am currently still on Skype just chit chatting. It has been a pretty chill kinda day and really I am glad I have off tonight because Tomorrow and Thursday are going to be ruff. So yes after tonight my eyes will be looking forward to FRIDAY night. No clue what I am going to do that night..but it will be nice to relax after the nightmare I am sure that will becoming between the next two nights.

Short of that I posted some new stuff on my other sites.. so it should all be cool!

didn't do shit!

I DIDN'T DO SHIT YESTERDAY!....no really.. I came home from work. Slept.. woke up.. played some The Wolf Among Us.. went back to sleep..woke up...went to work.. THAT WAS IT! The strangest thing is that while I was at work I had a ton of ideas for writing. I come home.. AND I CAN'T THINK OF SHIT! Oh well. I guess it is what it is.. Right now I am waiting for the post office to open. Need to check my mail box.. Buy Drain O for my shower.. and short of that..Probably just going to write more. Honestly this is going to sound nuts.. but I think I have a second book in mind.. and I haven't even finished the First one.. Regardless...should be interesting to write...hopefully I will sort all this out!

internet

So I woke up this morning and wrote a little bit of the book I am working on. So  far I must say it's coming along so much easier then I thought it would. Why I didn't think of the topic before hand is beyond me. Short of that I went over to see mom and dad. Helped them set up the internet as they just received an updated Router, and modem box. I had to call cablevision to get the stupid thing registered which took about 20 minutes on the phone...blah

I work again tonight..11-7..which is a odd week again .. but good paying one regardless. Not really sure what the deal is with the overnight shift. I think my boss is going to hire someone new once we start the new year to do the shifts "I can't". Who knows.. regardless I work now till Monday.. have Tuesday off.. return Wednesday/Thursday Night and have off Friday again.. and return again Saturday..

My set hasn't changed like this .. in a longggggggg time but Hey I could use the money so I am pretty happy with it. Short of that most of today will probably be spent sleeping and writing. Can't think of much more than that to do.

christmas

Let's see it started late last night for me. I managed to leave work a little bit after 12 A.M. Came home and went on the computer to send my friends the digital gifts on steam. I sent everyone the Mortal Kombat Arcade Kollection. I think everyone will enjoy that! Who doesn't love a good fight? Shortly after that I talked on Skype with a few of my friends for a bit..After that I passed out for a few hours "knowing I had to go to work." Woke up gave Megan her present which she loved! She gave me my present which I LOVED. Beard trimming kit with all the bits and stuff that come with it, and a 20 eshop points for some GAMES! We watched The Interview which was a silly movie but not as bad as they said it would be and really I don't see the big deal. Either way we watched that.. I showered..and off we went to see my family at my parents house. The kids ended up happy with there gifts, I gave everyone the books I purchased them and my grandmother received a card with 25 bucks in it.  I am pretty sure everyone ended up happy... My father wasn't around for it. Sadly he went to my uncles and I didn't get to see him. I will likely make a trip to see him tomorrow night seeing as I have off. 

I received a nice winter hat, sweater, and two pairs of EPIC PJ'S that I know I will need because it's COLD HERE! My sister also purchased me a spider-man cup that really IS ADORABLE... kinda like a goblet only you drink out of his head! Over all IT WAS PERFECT..

My sister was out of the hospital, my family is doing well.. what more could I really ask for in terms of this Holiday.. now lets finish this year! AND MAKE IT ALL THE MORE BETTER!

the better part

So yesterday after leaving mom and dad's in the morning I came home to sleep. Shortly after arriving I find out that I forgot the toilet paper. So I WAS forced to go back out to CVS! Honestly this town is pretty good to me because it leaves me alone for the most part. Having lived her for about....give or take.. 10 years I come to find that really everyone in New York is pretty centered no matter what part you go to. Even small towns like this one. I guess I make a presence here as a creepy guy during the day but your local nightly clerk by night. Kinda like Bruce Wayne and Batman only I am broke.

The better part of the day was spent streaming Sub-Zero Mythology and Star Craft 2. After that I spoke on Skype with my friend Billdill. I have known him since I was I think 15 years old. So it was good times! Just chatting and what not until I got this bad head rush that caused me to just pass out!

Today the plan is to sleep most of the day till about 6pm..Get ready for work..Work from 7pm till 12am and then return home to do ...whatever! It's Christmas Eve..So I will likely give my muffin her xmas gift and then leave the rest for tomorrow when I visit the parents for stuff! Should be a good time....pretty easy!

5:30pm update

So far I slept till about 3pm.. Woke up and started chatting on skype with some friends. I have no interest in going to work. HOWEVER I DO HAVE THE ENERGY TO DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE! It should go by progressively fast with how much has to be put into 5 hours. I even wrote out a map of all my plans at work. So really.. this should be smooth sailing in terms of work!

Regardless getting out at 12 will be nice.. This pay check should be SWEET! as well as next.. Rent needs to be paid Friday.. and Tomorrow I will visit mom and dad's.. Christ.. I hope this week ends well!

my efforts

I know I haven't written much of anything in the last couple of days. Mostly cause of work and sleep "I think I have caught up a bit on both". Just haven't been feeling so great.. and THIS WEEK IS CHRISTMAS! Which is no shock!!! Almost every year around this week I get sick ..for  day...or whatever! It's odd but yea..Regardless!!! I work tonight and have off tomorrow night. I will probably be streaming and cutting my list in half for the video game thing. We will see what happens!
Currently my sister is in the hospital with a infection which is good and bad considering "my sister has the worst immunity to everything" so it's good she's in the hospital rather then home. She like myself can be stubborn but is often smart enough to know "the line is drawn time to GO!". Tonight will be my last night of work for last week. I get one night off tomorrow..than I return to work Wednesday and Thursday..and oddly have off Friday. We will see how everything pans out but at this point I am looking forward to a good Christmas! I didn't really ask for anything this year but thought it was more about giving! I did a pretty good job with my bother and his wife. I know my girlfriend will enjoy her gift. My parents should get a kick out of what I purchased them. My sister's side I KNOW will enjoy what I purchased them. Really we will see how things pan out by the end of the week!

Back to work

So I went back to work.. My sleeping habits are currently horrible... and I found out that while I have Tuesday Night off.. I will be working Wednesday Night 7-12 "which will be closing time" and Thursday 11-7am but oddly enough have Friday Night off..which is strange ... I never have any weekends off..

Regardless of all that the night went about as well as I would have expected it to go. Nothing horrible happened last night and over all I got so much cleaning done that I am pretty sure tonight should run smooth. Came home to the house smelling like a bathroom..cause of course.. the ceiling is still leaking water. I need to dump the water..check the P.o.box and get some rest at some point. Sleeping is wayyyyyyy overrated but it's really necessary to do I guess. I mean I am all responsible and crap.. blah

At the moment I am watching the amazing Spider-man 2. For whatever the reason I just felt like watching it again. I only seen it once before..but little details I can assume..will say something about the new Avengers films. Which is sort of funny cause I DON'T really have much of a interest in Marvel Comics "I am more of  a DC fan" but the movies are pretty good in terms of story telling.

Anyway I will write more later..blah

Video Games...

One of the defining hobbies that I hold dear to my heart are video games. I have been playing games probably as long back as I can remember. As a teenager I excelled at them and really based pretty much everything I did on them. It was just a good way to get my mind off everything that bothered me. Really it defined so many things I did that really I held great friendships because of it and even related to people better because of that love.

You would think that as an adult it would have progressed into something more? However it hasn't.. I honestly play the games less now seeing as how I have RESPONSIBILITY in my life now. I mean of course I designed places for my interest.

https://videogamesalexander.wordpress.com

That's my place for my video games and my video game reviews. Currently I am working on my top 10 for 2014.. which I am 3 games behind on right now. Trying to finish 3 games so that I can have the list complete. It's working out just slowly..

Honestly..I tried to write about something nice today. I didn't want to bitch about the fact my ceiling is still leaking and that yesterday I spent the better part of 7 hours doing nothing but sitting on my ass playing video games. I mean really what the hell can I do about the ceiling? It's a giant hole right now with a pipe that just continues to leak. Every few hours I take the trash can out that is currently being filled with water. It is what it is I guess and really while it's just one of those things that time will fix because the landlord DID finally come over and attempted to do something about it. Really he couldn't do anything for me either.

Anyway I just got out of the shower and now need to get ready for work.  11 - 7am tonight...and the rest of the week. Least I get paid tonight..

Hitting bottom...

This film was made in 1999 based on this book by Chuck Palahniuk called Fight Club "Both the book and film are great!" However I bring that to mind because during a part of that film they show the house of Tyler Durden owns/lives in. He goes on to explain how it's the worst of the worst. Old, dilapidated, Broken and Rusted. He goes on to explain how it's the minimum to living conditions. It had electric but you could only turn on so many things at once. It had water but you could only get so much out of it and most of it wasn't clean.  It even has a funny part that I guess was added to for humor that Tyler is riding a bike around the house. His friend is sitting on a stack of old books just reading random articles about body parts written in the first person point of view.

Anyway I bring this up because I never put the two together but my tiny apartment and that house..really similar! Now before you think anything hear me out for a moment. I have lived in this tiny apartment for 5 years now. It's walls are built of sheet and maybe some insulation depending on what part your looking at.  It has only 3 doors to it.. The Front door, bathroom door, and closet door. The bathroom door doesn't fit the hinges so you can't really close it. I had to put a hook lock on it just to keep it closed from the outside. The closet door fits but really I don't open it much because it's a closet "I store shit in it". The Front door closes but it's probably on it's way out..and the lock is falling part. Short of the front of my apartment the only windows are located in the back end which it has 3 tall windows. All the windows and the front door are covered by window blinds that are old and beat up cause the dog freaks out from sounds she hears outside. They still work but are probably on the way out. Also because I am the only one who dust this house.. the blinds are covered in dust and spider webs. I clean em but not as often as I should and really it doesn't bother me at all. The rug in the house "which I am not allowed to remove because the landlord said so" is old and beat up also. 

About 3 years ago some people moved in upstairs who brought with them bed bugs. Now my apartment doesn't have bed bugs BUT every now and again we do see 1 or 2 show up maybe every 3 weeks. Those people have left the building about 4 months ago but the problems they brought with them didn't leave. I have spoken to the landlord about this but of course he sent in a exterminator who really didn't do much of anything short of spray "which I have done myself with spray which the  landlords purchased".  Also I think it was during the first year ...probably by the end of the first year actually that the ceiling near the front door started...to leak...water... "least I think it's water".

This brings me to today.. about a month or 2 ago NEW FOLKS moved into the apartment upstairs. They are VERY MUCH SO SUBSTANCE ABUSERS.."I know this because I work the job I do and can tell from experience".  Any who.. the bathroom upstairs has started to leak again.. Since 5 this morning "as already posted" I have had to change the plastic buckets that is catching most of "not all" of the water that has been coming down. It is now ... 9:33am ... I have spoken to the landlord and he said he called the plumber but doesn't know the time he/she will arrive.

"I should also note that every time I space here /\ I have changed the bucket of water." So what am I getting at? Well my home isn't that bad but the thought accord to me that the character of Tyler Durden had a point.  It wasn't just a hitting bottom physical thing it was a mental thing. Mental battles we all face every day when the toilet breaks "has happened to me".. the hot water goes out "also happens to me often" or something breaks and so on.  Sometimes the effect of something just tapping on your arm can drive you insane. However that I think was the part that passes on me.

It never dawned on me how bad a life that was for the character "While fictional" it was pretty bad but it does something to you. Makes you come to terms with the fact that most of the stuff you have is really just STUFF.. it's all comfortable but it's all part of what drives us to be happy or sad. Currently I am not happy or sad..just kinda dull to the idea that the water is still leaking. People say great art is created by the tortured.. while I don't think I am at that point.. this is still pretty bad.. maybe even a third world problem. Leaking walls ...it doesn't sound so bad...till it's your wall?

trying...

It's 5am in the morning and my apartment is once again leaking. I say leaking because my tiny apartment is under a bathroom that the tenants upstairs don't give a shit about and let the water leak down from the ceiling. Now I pointed out this event yesterday or it might have been Monday. I am not entirely sure because I work at night and my perception of time is a bit off. That AND I HAVE ONLY SLEPT FOR 4 HOURS before this shit started.

I am lucky I suppose because the plastic pans I have are holding the water well enough. I tried going back to bed but I suppose the stress and over thinking I tend to do is just keeping me up. Oh and it's my girlfriends Birthday but yea...she's sleeping.

In my head I keep thinking to myself maybe this is just one of those situations that a guy like me deserves to be in. I work a 40 hour a week job at a local gas station that really doesn't pay much but does pride itself on paying more than most places. So I guess I am lucky in that respect? I am sure your thinking "Why not get a better job?" Well most of my skills are related to those of a computer Repair specialist but of course because that field is rather hard to jump into I can't do it. Ok..ok.. So back in 2007 when I returned back to New York I did try to get a job in the field again. I went down to the Manhatten NY1 Job Center with my very neat very nice Resume..."dressed for success". Showed the job seekers my skill set and of course was told "We Will CALL YOU"...still waiting on that call...

I was in debit at the time...wait...I still am in debit from a relationship that went south. However I keep up with my 245 dollar debit expense. That's right every month I pay Capital One, American Express, Best buy, and Amazon in total 245 dollars to get out of about 7000 dollars worth of debit. I have gotten close to paying it off last year..however due to well...Life... that debit continues to follow me. Tho I am not bitching really... again.. I can do it.. I can pay for that the cable bill, the rent of 600 dollars, the food expenses, cat and dog. I do my best to keep up with everything! I am 100% independent and really I KNOW IT COULD BE WORSE...but something of course is making me think about how this is really all my own fault.

I made mistakes and of course I am not the type of person who would ever say "Not my fault I won't pay for it"..that isn't me. However I do have to question for how much longer do I or Should I CONTINUE to work this battle. I am sure your also thinking... "why not go back to School?" Believe it or not I have attempted to do just that a few times. For whatever the reason every time I try to get into something like that.. my luck runs dry in that either "thinks about the past" paper work, money, or something stupid like that seems to always get in the way. Also keep in mind I live in the middle of no place with no drivers license. YES I HAVE GONE FOR IT..3 TIMES .. AND FAILED..

Perhaps it's just a matter of finding time to do it right? Well I am not making excuses.. I have time to write this crap so clearly I have time to get myself settled in all that shit right? I don't know..maybe it's the stress? Maybe when I find the motivation to do something all I can think to do is write, play video games "to keep my sanity, read comic books "also to keep my sanity", but those are such big wastes of time right?

I just recently started reading about .net...which is a programing language that I am trying to learn that to me is almost as hard as trying to learn chines! Yet... I am trying for it. Now don't get me wrong again I am not being Negative.. I am being real. Honestly I am not a sad person or depressed about any of it just the type of guy who looks around and sees assholes do a lot less than this and get more from it. Really I am not angry about that either just lost as to how it all happens? Some people say it's who you know that gets you to the places you go. Really I believe that.. Fate has a big foot on the path of getting any place and you just have to keep picking yourself up and moving.

After all it could be far worse.....

UP IN THE AIR

So this morning I spoke to my boss and figured out that my current hour rate is temporary. Due to the lose of an employ "will not say who". My hour are up until something else can be figured out. This is good..and bad.. I was sort of hoping to stay at 40 but for whatever the reason I am required to stay under 36 hours. I want the money but working the hours will suck. Regardless this answers that question. ONCE AGAIN I should be sleeping right now but figured I would post something before passing out. The next two days are going to be relaxing and I should manage to just be fine for tonight. Tomorrow and Wednesday I have off so really looking forward to catching up on some games, and probably more writing. Today I didn't do much short of sleep, go to the post office and talk to a few people about just random topics. Megan managed to get some cards for her birthday so chances are she is going to go shopping for stuff soon.

Regardless things should be interesting..will post more tomorrow...today is just kinda..blah

can't sleep clowns will..become me

I came home from work today and pretty much just passed out the moment I walked inside. Woke up at about 11 a.m. AND FINALLY started to draw! Honestly I haven't focused on a serious drawing project in a long time. However with season 3 of Kainless almost at the end. With season 4 starting next month and me not only taking up the writing but the artwork this time.. it's new and exciting for me! I use to love to draw all the time. Having to pick up a pencil again was nice and really I think what I have so far is pretty good for a start.. However I think I REALLY want to define things more... like really bring the comic to  a darker spot than it was before. I don't plan on killing off people in this season. Last season the point was to explain that people came to the park to die and resurrect. This time I want to really dig into kainless as a character and build up some interesting bases on what is really happening with him as the focus. I sort of did that in season 1 however it was a different time period and I didn't take it as serious as I am now. From what I have of it so far it's looking to be very dark, creepy, and the mood is setting in well with what I have in mind.

Really I am very excited about this year coming. With Kainless as my art project, S. London as a written project and all the other writing projects just coming in around me it seems like things will be very productive this year! At least I hope it turns out that way.. it's hard to say because at the start of every year I tend to think over all the possibilities. THE HOPES ARE HIGH! I really think this is going to be a big year for change! 2015...christ.. can't believe it's coming.

I mean already this week has seen a big change having my hours go from max 36 to what i believe is now going to be 40 is a trip on it's own. Yes it means having more money but really the details on that I will find out more in the morning. This weekend in terms of work has been EXACTLY what I expected for this time of year. Slow and steady, with minor things out of wakk.. I am hoping that the machines got fixed today so I can clean the hell out of em.. it should be a busy week.. I am working 5 days instead of 4 which is fine with me..but I guess we will see how this is all going to pan out..

about to sleep before work

About to go back to sleep before work.. it's now 5:38pm.. Normally I sleep between 5- 10.. Wake up at 10..shower .. and off to work with me. The cold weather has slowed things down so really can't complain about anything on that end.  I spent most of the day "Once back from laundry" laying in bed watching South Park.. Can't say I am much of a fan of the show.. but it filled the time.. Not really sure what else to do at this point..probably just going to read a bit and off to sleep with me... blah.. I hate Friday Nights!

REAL laundry day..

So as I had written I did NOT do the laundry yesterday. Instead I woke up at 7am today and managed to pull that out meh butt! I managed to shower and then take myself to CVS to buy soap and take out the money to get on the bus. The bus was pretty quick actually taking the 197 to Warwick and than walking to the laundry place. I am sort of surprised that the bag lasted this time. I half way expected it to break but it managed another trip back and forth. I even managed to buy some Burger King "YOU SUCK YOU SHOULD BE DIETING!" but whatever.. it all worked out.

While I waited for the laundry to get done I traveled next door to Radio Shack. Honestly they had a bunch of cool stuff in this time. I am guessing they are pushing random things because of the Holidays. Regardless of all that nonesense I Purchased some cheap skull Candy headphones for my psp because my Sony Headphones "be dying YO"! Truth to the matter I wanted to replace my Sonys cause this will be the 3 or 4th time I had done so but they no longer sold em and this was the next best step. They are nice enough.. sound is ok.. I guess..whatever..

Made me think about how my mother was telling me she wanted to buy my father Beats Headphones.. I told her DON'T! They are made like crap and for the price you can get a much better sound quality from!!!

http://www.audio-technica.com/cms/site/c35da94027e94819/index.html

The way I see it never go with name brand stuff unless your like a fashion model or a young guy looking to make yourself look good. Personally I could careless what people think of my headphones and anyway who is going to judge me because of a name brand clearly doesn't know me nor deserve any respect from me to start with. Either way my mom will be pleased and my father will be happy!

Laundry day

So I managed to get home and sort myself out with my girlfriend. Apparently the rainbow cookies I brought back from the city had some mold on them. This bothered me but really nothing could be done on my end but of course this was something that had to be presented to me. I suppose it is what it is and really it's all said and done. Also I managed to stream for a couple of hours "Bayonetta on wiiu" at www.livestream.com/kainless. Links and what not can be found at www.theoneandonlyalexander.com . I plan to link this page to that main page at some point. It's like 2:57 a.m. I just woke up and I need to leave at 9 a.m. to do laundry. I should be back around 12 and I might go shopping with my mother to find something for the only person I missed yesterday. Also I read the Maxx Maxximized volume 1 which is kinda funny because it's just a translation of the MTV show. Perhaps vise verse either way I am not angry because Midtown Comics basically gave me the book for free because my account had 20 bucks on it. The book was about that much and really it is what it is. I seem to say that a great deal and I suppose that is just the way I look at things. Fate is going to do as it is and something you can't change so yea... Going to write about this book in my comic blog.. Love the artwork in it also..going to try to go with that style for Kainless season 4. "For those that don't know Kainless is my independent comic".. You can find it at the main page! 

This really isn't a plug for that page..Honestly everything I have worked on in the last few years I have set up to link to that. So it's sort of become me for everything I am interested in. Why I keep bringing it up is because if I write.. ya.. that's what I go to. Either way I probably could have finished Bayonetta tonight but I didn't because I was a bit tired. I will finish it soon and start the Sequel that I haven't TOUCHED yet. Plus I would like to finish Assassin Creed IV but who knows when I will get to that. Also need to finish Skylanders but that's going to be a team thing I do ...MAYBE TODAY.. who knows.. honestly at this point it's way to early to figure out the rest.. Maybe I will just sit around today and do all that shit tomorrow. I have work tomorrow and really it's my Monday "Your Friday". So let's just see how I feel in a couple of hours. 

Right now I feel like I should take a shower and shave. Blah.. probably will wait till the sun comes up for that. Currently I am skyping with my boy billdill and one of his friends. Hopefully the rest of the night will follow suit and things will look up!

They write directions

Today everything is given a instruction, Map or Direction. I find it funny how many people go around lost even with a GPS or some giant sign that explains exactly what place is in front of them. I think it might be because the growing idea of A.D.D AND A.D.H.D is just hitting home at every corner. Honestly I find it hard to believe anyone does anything now without be prescribed something. For people like myself I barely like to even drink coffee or take an Aspirin. This makes me think at the moment because I had 3 cups of coffee yesterday. However I also stayed up well past the 24 hour mark with my cousin. I work at night so finding the time to do anything with anyone is rare. However yesterday was a exception cause I was trying to get stuff done I other wise couldn't. Finding time to do anything is also sort of difficult because I work at night.

Imagine for a moment that every Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday your forced to work a 9 hour shift between the hours of 10pm and 7am. You don't make much money "but enough" to support yourself, a dog, a cat, and the person you choose to love "your girlfriend". You have been doing this for about five years now and on the side you try to write. sleep, eat and enjoy whatever time you can with family and friends. Well not so much friends because your really not much of a social person.

This pretty much makes you ME. I have been writing for awhile now and I post mostly on a web site titled "www.theoneandonlyalexander.com". I figured I would start to write here as sort of a reference for all of that.Something more a public voice on pretty much my doings or undoings "depends on how you look at it". I work with the people of a small town so naturally whatever social stuff I do I pretty much get done at work. When I write I write about stuff I enjoy like comic books, video games, Observations of things around me. Sometimes I try to write about politics and religion but that is often harder to do because I REALLY don't like talking about said things. It's all based on opinion and more often than not people get VERY touchy about said things.

If I think back on things I don't think I have stayed at one place for more then 9 years. I spent a good part of my life living in Brooklyn, NY. Was born in Brooklyn so I often tell people that is the place I am from. However I lived in said part of New York for only so long. Went from Brooklyn, to Staten Island, Back to Brooklyn, to Ocala, Florida, back to Brooklyn, Greenwood Lake "New York", to West Allis Wisconsin, back To Greenwood Lake which is my current Location. I will likely move again in the future but who is to really say?

For the most part all that traveling did was keep me ahead of most things in terms of getting to know people. It's because I have gotten to know people that I can deal with my job. My job currently is just dealing with people and cleaning while most of you are sleeping. The people I deal with aren't normal...well in the respect of the word normal either. Most are stressed, Drunk, Drugged up, or just insomniacs. This is normal I suppose in terms of what people do during the day but at night people just tend to become very self destructive I guess. Might be the lack of sleep?

Either way I don't really know why I am writing any of this crap. It's sort of just something to do while waiting for the bus. Which should arrive in about 15 minutes to take me back home. I am actually Earlier than I expected to be. I was hoping to take the 330 express bus but I finished my shopping early so now I just want to get home. Why do I want to get home?

Well ... hmm.. Girlfriend is sleeping, dog probably doesn't want the attention. Cat might miss me? Regardless I think it has more to do with the carrying of the stupid gifts. Which this year I am pretty happy with how I managed to sort everyone out minus ONE.... won't say the one because .. I will get to her..but ... going to need some thought into that!

So my visit went well really... the only thing that bothered me the entire trip was the fact I had to drop of my Sony Playstation 3 AGAIN to get repaired. I say again because Last Wednesday I picked it up at J & L Video games in midtown from being repaired. I took it home and it lasted all of 5 minutes before a message came up that said it was over heating and had to shut down. This prevented me from using the machine and also caused me to ONCE AGAIN.. take the trip back to the city to ONCE AGAIN.. get it repaired. I tried to ask for a refund but they refused to give me it because THEY INSISTED IT COULD BE REPAIRED...and they would try to fix it for no charge...even thou.. they already charged me for fixing it but they didn't...I wanted to get the money back so I could go buy a new one for just about the same price but I suppose that is what it is..

I will not becoming back to the city till next month because my cousin "whom I stayed with last night" will not even be here for the rest of the month. He is taking a trip to Egypt which honestly I am envious about. It's good to travel and I think more people should do it. It keeps your mind open, your senses sharp, and your actions always new. No Directions....for...traveling...  Well nothing that can be written anyway.. You sort of just have to do it the way it's going to work. Even if you take a bus, or fly or whatever.. Getting to the destination is part of the experience and I think that all the directions in the world aren't going to help you managed that. Book a hotel...plan it...and something can and sometimes does...go wrong..

I am not saying anything is wrong with giving directions just if you can't follow the step by step set your pretty much going to round about everything anyway. what the hell am I talking about anyway?