difficult

It's difficult to work a night job and function during the day. Over time I have gotten better at doing it but some times the mind and the body just get so tired that really it's just hard to pull myself out of bed let alone walking to work and doing the job. Today was one of those days that I came home "planned to do stuff" but couldn't pull myself to do anything. I was just tired and had a headache. In a bit I will take a shower and get ready for work.

Who knows how much I will get done tonight. Hopefully something will push me past this weakened state of mind. Maybe some Coffee?.. Either way I have shit to do tomorrow that MUST BE done. Sunday will be a good rest day and Monday will follow suit to me doing Laundry and getting ready to pick up my girlfriend on Tuesday.

Weekend hasn't even started yet... but I feel like it's going to be a longgggggggggggg weekend.. My mind just isn't in it at all. One hell of away to start MAY! Happy Beltane everyone.

learning programming

I managed to find a series of videos on Youtube on Lectures for Introduction to Computer Science and Programming. I am doing this so I can learn how to help my cousin at his job. Honestly it's more complicated than I thought it would be. However I like the feeling of learning again. It's going to be something I need to repeat a few times I think... cause.. I am learning.. but christ... it's ruff

a good weekend

So currently I am at my mother and fathers home. I slept here last night cause my cousin and his girlfriend are here visiting for the weekend. I came out here because my apartment still has it's issues with bugs and I figured the safest way around it would be to do it here so as to not multiply the problem to everyone I love. Either way it was a good day yesterday chillen, messing with geeky stuff, and playing video games. Today should follow suit in the same manor. I do have work tonight which sucks but I am probably going to go to the city on Tuesday to drop off my girlfriend for her trip to Virginia and to once again spend more time with my cousin. While he does work during the week I figure a little time spent is better then NO Time spent. Hopefully this week ends well... really not looking forward to working tonight but ... gotta make that money right?!

hmm.. a diet

So recently I started a new Diet and with that a Diet Blog.

https://kainless2.wordpress.com/

It works for what it is. So far I haven't done much short of diet and attempt to motivate myself to do exercise that I JUST DON'T have the motivation for. Regardless of all that I have off tonight and tomorrow and will likely play video games. I still feel kinda odd about the entire thing but so far I am pretty happy with most of I guess? I am about to go do Laundry! Which means I will get on the bus with a large bag of laundry and head to Warwick. Short of that I have no clue what else I will do. I have no real plans this week. NEXT WEEK mortal Kombat x comes out and I can't wait! After that I will be taking the weekend off and hanging out with my cousin. I CAN'T WAIT..so the next two weeks will be great..but this week... Not a clue!

My First check up in probably 15 years

I don't like going to the doctors. Hell I don't like even thinking about going. However I set up a appointment to get a check up which in about 20 minutes I will be going too. I am always nervous and hate the feeling of going. Yet I have come to find with time being a adult it's something you must do. Your always forced to get things looked at and so on. With age comes...well...aging.. I am sure I am fine just want to make sure everything is in working order. Perhaps ask some questions about what I can do with my workout to come. It's really more of a q & a then anything but we will see how it all pans out. I think they take blood during a check up? Not 100% sure but I suppose we will see how it pans out. I am sure I will write more later on today.

keeping to the plan

Keeping to the plan I have is difficult. However EXTREMELY REWARDING! If everything pans out the way I want it too I will have most of my credit card debit paid off and will only owe about 2500 by the end of the year. This is without variation for tax and of course interest. So the real number is probably about 3500 if that.. Plus I am adding a TV I might buy today along with some games and stuff. We will see what happens!

I also think I might be having panic attacks caused by stress I will call the doctor today! To set up check appointment that is probably over due by ... oh .. I think 10 years..maybe 15..regardless! Need to do that!

Creating

I haven't written here because I have been writing Kainless comic, and S.London. Currently I am working on the love page I was supposed to have up last Friday. I should start something on music later this week. I also posted some new deviant art work which I am happy with and I have been reading a great deal. So with all that and work it's all writing, writing, and more writing! It's currently Wednesday which is my Monday this week. So hopefully it will all pan out. I am also waiting on my ps4 today which I am excited about. Going to be a good week!