Seven Years

I came back to New York in 2009. I lived in Wisconsin for about a year and half. Before that I was living at my parents from 2001 till 2007.  When we moved in 2001 I was still in High School and I had just found out that it would be another two years before I finished. I was nine teen years old and it should have been that year I finished. At the time we arrived I wasn't sure what I was going to do with the next two years. It sounded like the best idea at the time to finish School. The strange thing was that I didn't think they would allow me to finish because A. I was going to be past the 21 year age limit during the time I was done. and B. I wasn't willing to go thru what I went thru at James Madison H.S. It took me so long to get to the point I was at because High School was a nightmare but that's another story entirely.

Those last two years turned out really really good. High School here was everything I wanted it to be because it was nothing like going to School in the city. After High School I didn't pursue any other Education because it cost to much and because I didn't have the focus to deal with it. To this day I question if I have that sort of focus. I am actually smarter then most people I know so really being further educated would only benefit me.

Yet the path I went down was work.. I worked for the current company I am with for two years. After the two years I was supposed to go back to School and live with my brother. That didn't happen because of money issues. Instead I managed to get another job at some peace of shit place on Lexington that I will not write about because they ended up having me TRAIN two other guys to replace me in a single day. IT PISSED ME OFF!

Shortly after that I took it upon myself to get my security license and went look like crazy for more work. I found a couple of spots here and there but nothing that lasted to long. So eventually I meet a girl and moved to Wisconsin to live with her with hopes as well that things would work out. Again..this lasted for a year and half before I had to return here.

I have been working at this job for well over 6 years now. Managed to take over the Night Shift by pure luck and well life experience. I really didn't expect it to last this long but some how it has. Hell it's excelled to the point that I am now a 40 hours full time employee which really is good! It pays for my home, girlfriend, and lifestyle.

I don't know what the next step is. I still have no idea what I want to do. Really I will probably be 50 years old and still have no clue. However I have a concept that paying off my debt is a goal. Going back to School..is a goal. Getting into a better spot is a GOAL.. how it will happen? Only time will tell..