My First check up in probably 15 years

I don't like going to the doctors. Hell I don't like even thinking about going. However I set up a appointment to get a check up which in about 20 minutes I will be going too. I am always nervous and hate the feeling of going. Yet I have come to find with time being a adult it's something you must do. Your always forced to get things looked at and so on. With age comes...well...aging.. I am sure I am fine just want to make sure everything is in working order. Perhaps ask some questions about what I can do with my workout to come. It's really more of a q & a then anything but we will see how it all pans out. I think they take blood during a check up? Not 100% sure but I suppose we will see how it pans out. I am sure I will write more later on today.

keeping to the plan

Keeping to the plan I have is difficult. However EXTREMELY REWARDING! If everything pans out the way I want it too I will have most of my credit card debit paid off and will only owe about 2500 by the end of the year. This is without variation for tax and of course interest. So the real number is probably about 3500 if that.. Plus I am adding a TV I might buy today along with some games and stuff. We will see what happens!

I also think I might be having panic attacks caused by stress I will call the doctor today! To set up check appointment that is probably over due by ... oh .. I think 10 years..maybe 15..regardless! Need to do that!

Creating

I haven't written here because I have been writing Kainless comic, and S.London. Currently I am working on the love page I was supposed to have up last Friday. I should start something on music later this week. I also posted some new deviant art work which I am happy with and I have been reading a great deal. So with all that and work it's all writing, writing, and more writing! It's currently Wednesday which is my Monday this week. So hopefully it will all pan out. I am also waiting on my ps4 today which I am excited about. Going to be a good week!

Seven Years

I came back to New York in 2009. I lived in Wisconsin for about a year and half. Before that I was living at my parents from 2001 till 2007.  When we moved in 2001 I was still in High School and I had just found out that it would be another two years before I finished. I was nine teen years old and it should have been that year I finished. At the time we arrived I wasn't sure what I was going to do with the next two years. It sounded like the best idea at the time to finish School. The strange thing was that I didn't think they would allow me to finish because A. I was going to be past the 21 year age limit during the time I was done. and B. I wasn't willing to go thru what I went thru at James Madison H.S. It took me so long to get to the point I was at because High School was a nightmare but that's another story entirely.

Those last two years turned out really really good. High School here was everything I wanted it to be because it was nothing like going to School in the city. After High School I didn't pursue any other Education because it cost to much and because I didn't have the focus to deal with it. To this day I question if I have that sort of focus. I am actually smarter then most people I know so really being further educated would only benefit me.

Yet the path I went down was work.. I worked for the current company I am with for two years. After the two years I was supposed to go back to School and live with my brother. That didn't happen because of money issues. Instead I managed to get another job at some peace of shit place on Lexington that I will not write about because they ended up having me TRAIN two other guys to replace me in a single day. IT PISSED ME OFF!

Shortly after that I took it upon myself to get my security license and went look like crazy for more work. I found a couple of spots here and there but nothing that lasted to long. So eventually I meet a girl and moved to Wisconsin to live with her with hopes as well that things would work out. Again..this lasted for a year and half before I had to return here.

I have been working at this job for well over 6 years now. Managed to take over the Night Shift by pure luck and well life experience. I really didn't expect it to last this long but some how it has. Hell it's excelled to the point that I am now a 40 hours full time employee which really is good! It pays for my home, girlfriend, and lifestyle.

I don't know what the next step is. I still have no idea what I want to do. Really I will probably be 50 years old and still have no clue. However I have a concept that paying off my debt is a goal. Going back to School..is a goal. Getting into a better spot is a GOAL.. how it will happen? Only time will tell..

Just a normal day

I have been writing a bit here and there. Tonight I might work on the London story for this week.
Also I did start kainless..its amazing to me how much I have gotten done since I bought this tablet!! I should purchased it sooner!! Regardless of all that this week will be a normal week and in have off work tomorrow night and Thursday! I really look forward to it!

Another night

Most of the day went as I planned it. Organized my comics, watched Gotham, and slept for work. I turned my clock forward by five minutes so as to keep me from being late. Really I am for the most part on time but sometimes I am five minutes late which isn't a big deal to anyone but me really. So hopefully I will adjust to that sooner or later. Short of that the night has gone accordingly. Coffees are done,Ovens are clean, the floor is shinning. Can't complain about anything really. It was a good night and it will be a good day.